Wrote this exactly a year back. Found it amongst the drafts. Still remember why I had written this one. And that too sitting in Ten Downing Street. LoL..
You know there's an end to everything, right? Heidigger once said, "For authentic living what is necessary is the resolute confrontation of death." I often pondered on the statement. I've always lived most of my life in halves. Always trying to understand both sides of the arguement. Jack of no trades but masters of some. Scared to make the quantum leap. Living the lukewarm life for most. Till it grew on me some days back. Till it struck. It reflected in my daily life, my writing, my conversations, relationships. Those who sensed always said, "Don't hold back. Why can't you open up completely? Don't deny the potential. Let the dam burst." And there were fortunately I say - very few of those. My mom. My ex-boss. A close friend for some time.
I am ready for the transformation. From the moth to the butterfly. To dare and live completely. To test the boundaries of my passion, conviction and brevity against temptation and surpass it. Unconsciously I've been taking baby steps which I realised just a few hours ago. Subconscious resistance to various temptations finally turning conscious.
And so this too must pass as I turn a new page of a new chapter of a new book. It's time to test the mettle against all the sacred I ignored deigning it less than worthy.
Jean Anouilh - "Until the day of his death, no man can be sure of his courage."
Current Music - Queen - The Show Must Go On
