7.30.2009

The Violinist

This is not my experience but how I wish it was. This lesson is astounding and will stay with me to pull me up if and whenever I am going down towards the dumps. It's really up to us to create music with what is available to us instead of crying about life giving us an unfair deal in any walk of life. The power of staying positive is truly transformational and completely seperates the wheat from the chaff. This couldn't have come at a better time. Itzhak Perlman wherever you are, you are inspirational. Here it goes.

On Nov. 18, 1995, Itzhak Perlman, the violinist, came on stage to give a concert at Avery Fisher Hall at Lincoln Center in New York City.

If you have ever been to a Perlman concert, you know that getting on stage is no small achievement for him. He was stricken with polio as a child, and so he has braces on both legs and walks with the aid of two crutches. To see him walk across the stage one step at a time, painfully and slowly, is an awesome sight. He walks painfully, yet majestically, until he reaches his chair. Then he sits down, slowly, puts his crutches on the floor, undoes the clasps on his legs, tucks one foot back and extends the other foot forward. Then he bends down and picks up the violin, puts it under his chin, nods to the conductor and proceeds to play.

By now, the audience is used to this ritual. They sit quietly while he makes his way across the stage to his chair. They remain reverently silent while he undoes the clasps on his legs. They wait until he is ready to play.

But this time, something went wrong. Just as he finished the first few bars, one of the strings on his violin broke. You could hear it snap - it went off like gunfire across the room. There was no mistaking what that sound meant. There was no mistaking what he had to do. We figured that he would have to get up, put on the clasps again, pick up the crutches and limp his way off stage - to either find another violin or else find another string for this one. But he didn't. Instead, he waited a moment, closed his eyes and then signaled the conductor to begin again.

The orchestra began, and he played from where he had left off. And he played with such passion and such power and such purity as they had never heard before. Of course, anyone knows that it is impossible to play a symphonic work with just three strings. I know that, and you know that, but that night Itzhak Perlman refused to know that. You could see him modulating, changing, re-composing the piece in his head. At one point, it sounded like he was de-tuning the strings to get new sounds from them that they had never made before.

When he finished, there was an awesome silence in the room. And then people rose and cheered. There was an extraordinary outburst of applause from every corner of the auditorium. We were all on our feet, screaming and cheering, doing everything we could to show how much we appreciated what he had done.

He smiled, wiped the sweat from this brow, raised his bow to quiet us, and then he said - not boastfully, but in a quiet, pensive, reverent tone - "You know, sometimes it is the artist's task to find out how much music you can still make with what you have left."

What a powerful line that is. It has stayed in my mind ever since I heard it. And who knows? Perhaps that is the definition of life - not just for artists but for all of us.

Here is a man who has prepared all his life to make music on a violin of four strings, who, all of a sudden, in the middle of a concert, finds himself with only three strings; so he makes music with three strings, and the music he made that night with just three strings was more beautiful, more sacred, more memorable, than any that he had ever made before, when he had four strings.

So, perhaps our task in this shaky, fast-changing, bewildering world in which we live is to make music, at first with all that we have, and then, when that is no longer possible, to make music with what we have left.

7.27.2009

A 'Crack' at the 'Gate'

The other day, I was talking with P, an old friend. We share a few likes - spirituality seems to be a common thread binding us. She was frustrated with her lack of "growth" inspite of going hard at it for almost a year. She was unable to experience the "well being", trance like", "euphoric" or even the "let loose and loco" states experienced by many others. I was in no mood to dispense any Zen to her. But like a lot of items which send me to another tangent, it set me thinking for the night. I had been through similar experiences too e.g. during one of the mediation sessions, the person next to me became almost an animal with his wild howling and berserk behaviour. All it required was the touch of Sadguru's stick and he became silent immediately and moved to a blissful state. I didn't envy that but rather despised my inability to completely surrender.

We all have experimented with some form of addiction, right? Cigarrettes, alcohol, marijuana, mescalin, LSD, coke and so on. Well, almost everyone has in some form or other. And not everyone can manage all of it. For e.g. I went bollocks when I tried LSD once. The entire system went into an uncontrollable planet where I just could not control any part of the conscious. Similarly with cocaine for the first time. The body couldn't handle the enormous boost of well being and awareness that flooded every core. The feeling of being superman crashed some circuits within the brain and I don't recollect anything else after that. The point here being, that not everyone is ready for an out of the world experience. It is not possible to pass a 1000W charge through a 60W bulb. We either have to increase the capacity of the bulb or lower the charge. Similarly for meditation, I think the experience varies according to the level of readiness (mental and physical blocks) and the super experiences happen only when we are ready to absorb the bursts at a consistent level. Discipline of doing it regularly and focus prepares our body and mind for the same. All in good time. And so P concurred with my thoughts.

You agree?