Essence. Core. Heartfelt. Touching. Love. Forever. And so on. There are so many words which most people roll off their tongue as part of their daily communication without even thinking or feeling about the gravity of each one. And then there are some who use them skillfully and with pause on certain occasions. These don't feel the gravity either. And then there are those who don't use them ever. They don't feel anything at all but at least they are honest.
There is one other category of people. I have to meet THAT one. I realized something else. I am not cut out for that loving feeling at all. It's not that I don't feel it but probably I don't deserve it to come to me. The amount of expectations are a kill-joy for me. I am not equipped to deal with those. With relationships comes compromise. I completely agree and one has to, if he is living in society. But my immense inertia to get out of the state and respond even at crucial moments has led me to this conclusion. My house might be on fire and I wouldn't be bothered. Too much communication irritates me these days. Especially in a relationship, you know how necessary it is. Wot shit is this? Mind to tongue to type is not happening very well too.
I think I should stick it up and close this. Be happy go lucky as is my nature and not try to change myself for anyx..
