It's so important not to fool yourself into thinking you can cause a change in anything. Person, organization or even your kid whom you probably can twist the most. Trying to change someone or something is like flogging a dead horse. You can only change yourself and probably create the environment for things to blossom if they are supposed to. But the most important commodity I find stretching across everything is 'time'. What is it that you want to do? Truly.
Alice came to a fork in the road. "Which road do I take?" she asked.
"Where do you want to go?" responded the Cheshire cat.
"I don't know," Alice answered.
"Then," said the cat, "it doesn't matter."
~Lewis Carroll, Alice in Wonderland
"Where do you want to go?" responded the Cheshire cat.
"I don't know," Alice answered.
"Then," said the cat, "it doesn't matter."
~Lewis Carroll, Alice in Wonderland
I dont know if it's just me but I find time speeding at twice the speed once you are past 30. Add the information and options overload these days. I find this overwhelming. Just a simple search for finding hotels in New York gave mind boggling options. It scares me in my solo times in the night when I wonder once in a while if I am making maximum utilization of myself. That phrase 'so much to do - so less time' it hits you in the thirties. Once you are on this rollercoaster, you get down only when you kick the bucket. Explore spirituality, explore the world, do those three social causes, be a good father, mother, son, friend etc, live up those sexual desires while you still can without guilt, impact the lives of at least 5 people in your life and eventually have the money to do all this and make that retirement pot too. And all in 'time'.
I didn't think I would come to New York for a long, long time. But a certain amount of deviousness at work forced me to play my hand. There are some chapters here that I would either like to solidify for life or close forever but how do you squeeze it in a short time? It's not instant coffee but you can't deny either. One person I WANT to desperately meet once and I dont use this term at all. This discourse could go on forever but let's cut this short. I want to not confuse anymore.
Current music - Alan Parsons Project - Time
